Sunday, April 01, 2007 i only write in my personal diary when something really upsets me. and i forget all these bad things that happened to me after a while. but its so stupid. when i read past pages of my diary, all the bad memories start coming back. those really painful ones, i can still feel the hurt in me. like the words are emitting this kinda "hurt" vibes. so stupid. never going to write in my diary again. i only want to remember good times. no bad.
and fucking stupid me la. i was bathing and i remembered that my dream was really to go canada and study. and what in the world made me reconsider? two things- my job and my relationship. so stupid, both are not permanent. i might lose my job and break up. fuck, wish i was in canada now. only young once. and once i get into this working path, dont think i'll get out till retirement.
been working OT the whole week. and i only had one bus ride and one mrt trip. other than that its all cabbing. i took 7 cabs this week. and each like $15 averagely. this is bad. money flows like water.
watched mr bean's holiday on tuesday and it sucks. i think i'd rather watch old reruns of mr bean on tv, more hilarious.
shooter is not bad. tho its told like a story book, plot there, on screen no movie flow. but the guns, the shooting, the parts where he saved himself and built bombs with commodities, damn cool. recommend this show! what's it about? its about this guy who is a US navy shooter. in one mission that went wrong, he lost his best friend who was a spotter. so he retired. three years later, a man from the US govt asks him to plan an assasination on the president so they could stop it. but they turned it around on him, and he came back for revenge .. exciting?
aiiyah, going to buy some brekkie. disorientated and my head hurts.
i hate life. bye world.
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